I really really need peace inside me.
I dont know whats with all the nonsense that im thinking recently.
All i want to do now is just, stay focus.
I havent got enough sleep for myself and im like in a holiday mood still.
I should stop focusing on what i want and get what i need.
life just sucks abit more when bad things happen.
For all i know now, i can rely on no damn person to tell things to.
all i have is me and God.

I hate it when people just dont try hard enough to understand me, maybe i over care about people already, so its my issue.
I should stop bringing up the past, stop staring at people, stop having issues with people.
yah, when i dont even have that intention it the first place.

Screw me, screw everything. I just want everything to pass asap. No joke.
Im so not myself, i know no one is gonna ask why and who cares.
Goodbye.

Hello.
Just a quick update.
ITESC competition, i got a silver.
I know basically i didnt make much effort but oh well, sigh. i really wanna win this.
Next year, im gonna win a doubles. I need a good double girls. Seriously, sigh.
I dont want to be a useless one, i want to win.

Tmr church, basically school started, not very good and thats bad.
No one to talk to, its okay, im quite used to it already.
Lifes pretty much like that.
Goodbye! :D

Hello blog, its been exactly 10 days since i blog and seriously speaking, i really have plenty to talk about. (:
Firstly lets talk about F1, basically something happened between me and aza, sofea so we are not friends now. I was wrong to talk about them, sofea was wrong with the way she behave. Azhar was wrong trying to be on the top. So basically my F1 experience was actually really good except for all that that happened.

After last day of F1 stayed at ori's house till 5plus thought the rain will stop but didnt then rushed home and slept. Then i slacked with Kanishk and peeps for 2 or 3 days afternoon.
Wednesday had stamina training and my heart almost come out, it was so tiring, no joke then after that on that night went to fetch waynn at the airport with ori and he got me a cross necklace with a ring that represents halo. I love it, (:

Went home around 4 going 5 and slept the day through and slack.
Watch Modern Family Season 1 and 2 finish during this holiday plus Glee Season 3 2 new episode, New girl 2 episodes and counting. (:
Just gonna like chill and let everything be. Im still thinking whether should i work anot.
But i kinda like this week because i get to spend time with my family.

My big brother and meng e broke up and he kinda apologise to me.
I mean like seriously shocked but oh well its over.
Praise the lord that everything good is coming eh?

Im just kinda sad with my results like seriously?
GPA 1.611, all C and a D.
apparently, C is good and D is a pass. Sigh, i really need to buck up on semester 2.
After semester 2 everything is done you know, like fated to see whether i can go poly or not.
Idk lah, but i need to learn to save what i have and stop smoking.
I want to strive in badminton too. ):
I need to join a club or something to start training on it.

okay, now is 2.31am i went to have a break. haha.
So this week was just a chilled week, kinda good.

Friday i went out with joyce,
Cooked chicken chop for my family and joyce,
had lunch with her at my house, went to watch johnny english and marina square.
Walked to clark quay slowly, sit by the river side and met waynn and ori,
sit down and drink and chill, sent joyce home, supper with waynn and ori and went home.

Today, 1st Oct.
Happy Supposed to be 2nd year? (:
Wanted to like spend time with her on the 2nd year but i guess everything turned out haywire.
Maybe its seriously time to find a bestf, i need one man.
Well, i had a great day though.

School is starting and hopefully the new timetable is good, if its not also cannot say anything right anot? Sigh.
But monday school starts at 11am, which is kinda good?
I dont have to jam with people first thing in the morning, though it ends abit late but nevermind, its still fine.

My life is quite good now, nothing much to ask more right?
I think i need a makeover, ill do it when i have the money and time for it.
Okay, thats all i want to rant.
Goodbye blog. (:

Hello Bloggy,
So on monday til wednesday, im suppose to go albert park for job interview, but woah, no one follow me there and im quite reluctant to go actually, sigh.
Its like going so far just to sign a contract, cant we meet somewhere earlier? seriously?
First badminton morning training, super tiring, played with people i never play before.
I realised i used strength at wrong timing and my foot work is horrible. ):
Friday im going jogging with them at east coast park, oh no.
1. i hate running.
2. i dont know how to go there.

So tmr, basically i have nothing much to do, but i hope i can get my butt to go to albert park and sign the stupid contract and get myself a job. I want to cut my hair and alter my long pants to 3/4 pants then can wear out. (:
And friday f1 starts and i have to sleep early so that i can have energy for the whole day till sunday is over.

I feel so sleepy already man, so basically my life has been good, nothing much to rant about.
Just like everyone is in their own world. Waynn's going auzzie, meet ori almost everyday.
I realised, when you are a bad drinker, or you dont drink, you dont really socialize with some people cuz they meet to drink. so its quite bad, but im quite cool with that.

In life, we just cant let things go our way. One thing for sure that im happy about is that im kinda walking to the whole badminton team already? and i think i need to train my footwork and the way i hold my racket in a doubles game.

I kinda cant wait for school to start, i want to get over higher nitec like asap so that i got better things to do in life. Sigh.
okay, gonna sleep soon. Goodnight.